Over the last few weeks I've been having difficultly of seeing people who are my friends and have my back. I understand people have day jobs, or are musicians, or work in the music industry. I know sometimes I can't go see music, because its too expensive if there's a fee to get in.
The point of this is. July 23rd, 2015. I will go in for appointment to plan my next surgery, which not only will be a Much longer recovery. I will also be in the hospital longer and probably have to go rehab. The surgery is flap for the open wound. The short details is that I know is I will have to lay on my stomach 3-4 weeks, and possibly in the hospital 8 weeks, and that doesn't even include bed rest once I'm home.
I do not do alone well at all. Not be able to move is very hard for me to deal with. On top of that right now I honestly don't know who I can trust to at very least text/call facebook me to check on me. Like having my back. I see my friends, and I'm like they are so busy, will be there for me even for a minute even its not a visit to the hospital. I need this surgery, but I also need people to help me get through this I can't do it on my own except for my parents its just to hard.
I basically felt like I recovered from my back surgery by myself. I had a few friends help me get through it the first time, so I'm not saying no one helped, but I wish I could have had more. I wouldn't have gotten so depressed. Yes, I do battle depression these last two years. I feel like I've been through hell and back, and still partially going through hell. This is just very difficult for me.
I understand people have jobs, gigs, girlfriends/boyfriends, kids, whatever people have in their normal lives, but I just sometimes feel like I've been forgotten lately, unless I see them in person.
I know this sounds stupid its just been really for me lately.
My cell number. I have two phones, but I'm giving one to my mom, and I'm keeping the one from the Wal-Mart Family plan. My Number # 469-740-4656
